One year ago today, I became a mother of four.Andrew's existence was God's plan, not ours. His birth did not go according to plan. His subsequent pneumothorax (hole in his lung causing the lung to collapse and the chest cavity to fill with pockets of air) was definitely not our plan.
Being unable to hold my darling baby for three days after his birth, stroking a toe as the only form of physical contact, and finding out later that his heart was where his kidneys belong is not something that is in any mother's plan.
But this child, this amazing boy that God gifted us with, was definitely in His perfect plan.
I am in awe of how much God knew we needed this baby, and how much we would come to realize that our family would never have been complete without him. He is such a joy and I am so incredibly blessed to be his mother.
And God's plan is so much better than mine.
Happy birthday, baby Drew. You amaze me every day, your pure joy and delight in your family is a blessing to see. When you smile, it starts in your eyes and your whole face lights up. I have never seen anyone with the ability to show love through your eyes like you do.
At one year old, you can take four or five steps on your own and will be walking way before I am ready to let you become a toddler.
You say "mama" and "dada" on your own, and will say many words with some prompting. You love your sissy with everything you have, and chase your brothers and try to play with their toys. You are tough, you don't cry every time you get pushed down by your brothers who don't yet understand. Some days, you want to be big so badly so that you can run and play with your older siblings and cousins, but some days you are quite content to snuggle in someone's arms.
You love your Daddy dearly and your eyes light up when he comes home. You reach for him in the mornings, and love to go with him when he fixes you your morning bottle.
You love to snuggle your head in someone's chest, laying your sweet head down is your way of giving a giant hug and telling someone that you love them.
You are an amazing child and I cannot wait to see how you develop and what you choose to do with your life. I truly believe God put you here for a purpose, and your life will be extraordinary. You amaze me every day and I am so glad you are my son.
Happy birthday, my darling Drew.
I love you! -Mommy